The following is a piece written by a Veteran who prefers to remain anonymous. If this resonates with you, please share your experience below.
I need to compete.
I need the eyes of judgement and assessment on me holding me accountable.
I need the struggle and hardship of pushing myself to be better, mentally and physically.
I need to sweat, breath heavy until the taste of metal creeps into my throat, I need the pain of pushing my physical limits.
I need hard work.
I thrive in this primitive element of strain.
Call me simple, but I need to be on edge, sharp, always honing the blade.
Life’s struggles has had that blade smashed on a rock until dull and bent, that primitive animal state, emaciated. ‘Like driving a Ferrari with the e-brake on’ a friend once told me.
There is a way back. I just need to find it.
Head up, leading into a headwind, lean in and push forward.
It’s time to leave this dark place behind me, make it a memory.
Time to work the edge sharp again, to feel the pain of growth, to grit, to push through the pain.